A sepia-toned grainy image of a brown person with short black hair and white shirt looking through the viewfinder of a vintage 8mm film camera.

Because of You: A History of Kilawin Kolektibo

Barbara Malaran, Desireena Almoradie 2025 0:40:00 Min English, Tagalog English Open Captions Canada, Philippines, United States

Joyful, raw, revolutionary: Because of You: A History of Kilawin Kolektibo tells the remarkable story of queer Filipnxs who, in the 1990s, against a racist, lesbophobic backdrop, came together for the first time in NYC to create a safe and loving community.

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Synopsis

Joyful, raw, revolutionary: Because of You: A History of Kilawin Kolektibo tells the story of queer Filipnxs who, in the 1990s, against a racist, lesbophobic backdrop, came together for the first time in NYC to create a safe and loving community.

This archival documentary traces the history of Kilawin Kolektibo, a pioneering collective of Filipnxs who came together in NYC in the mid-nineties. Having experienced marginalization in Filipino culture because of their queerness and in mainstream gay culture because of their race, language, and gender, the members of the group sought political empowerment and increased visibility.

Above all, they sought to create a space of friendship and safety for those who found themselves situated between cultures and identities. Kilawin Kolektibo allowed them to transform their experience of oppression into one of joy and growth. As time passed, group dynamics changed with diverging priorities, and friendships frayed, including that of the filmmakers Desireena Almoradie and Barbara Malaran. Having been estranged for 15 years, they find their way back to each other through the making of this film.

Culling from a treasure trove of over a quarter century’s worth of historic documentation that includes footage, photographs, interviews and ephemera, the film tells the inspiring story of members as they found each other, fell in love, and became each other’s lifeblood amidst a society that rejected them. From marching, partying, and protesting, to its oftentimes incestuous sexual politics, the film serves as an exhilarating memorial to the rebellion and nostalgia of the nineties.

Screenings

ENCORE: Queer Asian World Cinema

Watch anytime between September 11-21. A dance floor turned into history. A teenager seeing themselves clearly at last. Two best friends holding onto one last summer. A collective…

Friday, September 11, 2026
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Online Encore ENCORE: Queer Asian World Cinema

Queer Asian World Cinema at Chinese Culture Center

A dance floor turned into history. A teenager seeing themselves clearly at last. Two best friends holding onto one last summer. A collective built against silence.

Saturday, July 4, 2:00 PM - 4:00 PM
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Satellite Screening Queer Asian World Cinema at Chinese Culture Center

Queer Asian World Cinema at Oakland Asian Cultural Center

Eight films moving between memory, diaspora, and dream where identity flickers, stretches, and insists on being seen.

Friday, May 22, 6:30 PM - 9:30 PM
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Satellite Screening Queer Asian World Cinema at Oakland Asian Cultural Center

Queer Asian World Cinema at Los Angeles Asian Pacific Film Festival

Deep connections to Asian American lineages. A dance floor turned into history. Seeking acceptance from family. A teenager seeing themselves clearly at last. Two best friends holding onto…

Sunday, May 3, 3:00 PM - 5:00 PM
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Satellite Screening Queer Asian World Cinema at Los Angeles Asian Pacific Film Festival

Content Warnings

Racial slurs Reclaimed slurs Nudity Sexual content Intimate partner violence Death Flashing images

Specific Themes

Asian Community Feminism Women

Credits

Director
Barbara Malaran, Desireena Almoradie
Screenwriter
Desireena Almoradie, Barbara Malaran
Producer
Desireena Almoradie

About Filmmaker(s)

"Barbara Malaran (they/them) is a queer and non-binary interdisciplinary artist and the child of immigrants from the Philippines. They grew up in a middle class family and earned a degree in Media Studies from The New School. Barbara’s work focuses on exploring autobiographical stories of community through video and audio narratives. Throughout their career, they have worked both as an artist and an educator. Desireena Almoradie (she/they) is a queer filmmaker who emigrated from the Philippines to New York at the age of eleven. They grew up in Queens, earned a degree in film from NYU and has dedicated their career to the documentary field, with a focus on collective history and BIPOC lives. Desireena lives in Washington Heights in NYC with her partner, their young child, and their dog."

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